Haunt Me

On the way to work this morning, I heard a song I have heard many times before and I knew I liked it, but it hit me differently this morning. The song is Ghost Story by My Epic. It is a song about human nature. About fear and longing, hope and light. I cannot express how much this song relates to me. That when I sing it, I sing it as if I wrote it myself and about how I need to always let Him haunt me.

Wake You're haunting me again There you stand every time So alive it's scaring me to death

Wave You're beckoning me in To the places between all the dreams And nightmares in my head

Seeds will never bloom 'til they die Wicks don't shine until they're on fire And every newborn leaves a scar to remind

If it costs me nothing Is it worth anything? I hear you calling but my God I am scared Still if you lead me I will follow you there

Grace We talk as though it's free But who can measure the cost of your Son Or put a price upon your grief? So it's a gift but it's not cheap

Seeds will never bloom 'til they die Wicks don't shine until they're on fire And every newborn leaves a scar to remind If it costs me nothing Is it worth anything?

And if your glory follows after the cross Then God so help me I will carry it on The doubts still whisper inside my gut "Count the cost" but I added it up And it keeps haunting me Haunting me

Because I've dreamt the faces of hopeless men (Holy Ghost) I've seen the truth of what's at risk (Keep haunting) And I cannot stop thinking of the sounds in hell (Holy Ghost) So let them grow louder and louder (Keep haunting)

'Til I don't fear anything else Keep haunting me If it costs me nothing Is it worth anything? I hear you calling but my God I am scared Still if you lead me I will follow you there

If it takes everything And I'm left with nothing I know your glory follows after the cross Then God so help me I will carry it on Carry it on Carry it on

I hear you calling but God I am scared (Holy Ghost) If you lead me I will follow you there (Keep haunting me)

I hear you calling but God I am scared (Holy Ghost) I hear you calling Keep haunting

If that doesn't slap you in the face, I don't know what will. How many times in our life do we look for the easy things? The things that come free, are great, but ultimately don't cost us anything. Are they really worth it? Do we view our Christianity this way? God did everything for us, it technically didn't cost us anything, and if we truly believe it doesn't cost anything, how much do we actually value it?

The truth is, it is free. God loved us so much, He gave His Son for us so that we could live. This gift is something we didn't deserve and we can never repay, but it also comes at a cost to us. That cost is to live a life that honors and glorifies Him. To do so, you may not be popular, you may feel alone at times, and you may feel like this life is foreign to you. Well, guess what, it is. As a son or daughter of God, we were never meant to live this life in this "world". We were meant to spend eternity at the feet of Jesus basking in His presence and declaring His name.

So from this day forward, I will ask the Spirit daily to HAUNT ME. To remind me that God is calling me. That I am not bound to this world and I will follow wherever He leads. I encourage you to do the same!